__________Living In My Lunatiquely Lemon World Of Confusions----------

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

\I guess I do care after all...//

Today has been absolutely miserable. Three Cs. And being the stupid person I am, I had walked out of the exam hall thinking that it wasn't so bad afterall. I think my facade is dropping. I have shed a few tears. Of frustration, exasperation, disappointment or dejection, I don't know. Frankly, I think I'd be a truly happier person if I knew what goes on up there half the time.
What on earth am I doing? I really don't know and the folks aren't exactly helping. Why do people seem to thrive on my -
Forget it. The whole world seems against me today. Even inanimate objects. I still have a hell lot of things left undone. When will I complete them? People ain't helping either. I wanna scream and shout and trash things. But most of all, I want to cry. Cry myself a river or bawl my eyes out, anything. Why can't I cry? I should feel better. Or better still, I wanna sleep. Sleep and the world will seem better, even for a short while.
My beloved patrol members, understand that I am trying my best even though I know I am not freaking good enough nor will I ever be. I am clearest about my abilities and this is waaay out of that pathetic range. If you guys would cooperate, maybe I won't just break down in front of every body. Maybe I would go hide in some obscure corner and sleep and pretend every thing never existed. I don't have what it takes and the person who has what it takes is busy with her other appointment so you'll just have to bear with me for the rest of this year. You guys are lucky, I have to bear with myself for the rest of my life and that is a bleak future. And screw CCA points. I wish I never existed. That I am just some fictionous character. So I'll never have to experience reality. I do care after all. And that's what makes me miserable.

I'm Confused|Tuesday, May 15, 2007|

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Saturday, May 05, 2007

\I FEEL SO HAPPY!!!!//

First of all, I wanna express my infinite gratitude to Each-A-Cup PP. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!! I finally found my beloved wallet....I nearly died of anxiety...
I was like,
"Um, did you see a black wallet here last week?"
Then they were like, yeah...
I was so happy when I saw that chinese character for 6 on that familiar tattered black wallet. I could have died... Then it was like reuniting with my wallet gave me a HUGE energy boost...I was running all over the place with a goofy grin on my face...

Oh and anyway... Jap class was as usual, uneventful but tuition was sooo hilarious... Pei Fang was a bit off her rockers today. I have to say, a crazy Pei Fang is worse than 5 normal Chun Xis and that's saying a lot. Then she confessed something that made us all go 'What the?'

PF:Hey, you know, I always found the MM scary...
Rest of the class (excluding lone male and gay teacher): HUH?
PF: I mean, his eyes are scary and he looks like a mosquito.
(At this moment, Chun Xi falls over.)
Rest of the class (excluding lone male and gay teacher again) : 0.0'''
CX: If you say he looks like a monkey, yea I can see why but a mosquito?!
Me: Don't mosquitos have the loooong sucking thingy on their faces? The MM don't have leh...
CX (going totally out of point) : Eh our bio book got picture of mosquito leh.
Me: So not relevant to current topic under discussion now...

Oh and not-so-important point: Me and CX took at least 6 videos of said gay teacher...watch out for it under DSC on youtube!

I'm Confused|Saturday, May 05, 2007|

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Wednesday, May 02, 2007

\This mid year just can't get any worse...can it?//

ARGH! It just went downhill from the very beginning and I STILL have no inclination to study! Even the exams are almost over... ah well... better go photocopy my chemistry notes, burn them, put the ashes in water and drink it. If this doesn't work... I'll just get a bad stomach upset and not be able to go to school. Or put my notes on my head when I sleep and let diffusion take place.

I'm rambling. I just realized. Haizzz...gotta stop crapping and use active transport to memorise the stuff. SEE! I am studying! No, actually, I took that paper already so it doesn't count.

Damn...the lack of sleep is getting to me...after three nights of incessant rain and the stupid bamboo blinds thwacking against the window, I look like a panda.

No wonder I'm rambling...

I'm Confused|Wednesday, May 02, 2007|

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